My Simple Life..

Someone, anybody, teach me the correct anger management. I am damn pissed today. Shall not rant too much about today. They just make my blood boil. I am feeling so much resentment. Someone keeps misunderstanding me. Looks like my selection of words are chose wrongly which made her have wrong interpretations of what I spoke. Better brush up my English. I am just tad poor in speaking. And because of this, my ideas, what I mean can be perceived in a wrong light. I hate it. I asked "If I can't vent my anger on anybody, then who should I vent it on or how should I vent it?" Having heard that, she replied that I was too much and I went overboard. Haha... I feel so wronged. She raised me but she don't know me well enough to know what I mean. I could tell all this to my tutor whom I only known for half a year and she could tell me what I really meant. What irony. How sad.

Losing a friend, flunking my exams, having bad times in school- These can't be compared to how she interprets my intentions. Never felt so hurt. The ultimate injury. Superb bitterness. Talk back and shout back, the misunderstanding would only sink deeper. What can I do but only rant at this blog which no one reads? He said those three words but he doesn't mean them. He don't even bother to read my posts. In this case, the words proved no meaning at all. The amulet she gave claimed to make whoever wears it to have more affinity with others. But why do I still have fights and quarrels with the people I know? Buddha's protection and blessing? My foot. What naivety. I don't believe in it.

No one to depend on, no one to talk to, no one to give me console and to give me psychological comfort. They don't understand me at all. Totally. As much as they are frustrated with me, I am equally as frustrated with myself and the insufficient understanding they give.

by yours truly, at Tuesday, June 21, 2011